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  Table of Contents

  PROLOGUE

  CHAPTER ONE

  CHAPTER TWO

  CHAPTER THREE

  CHAPTER FOUR

  CHAPTER FIVE

  CHAPTER SIX

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  CHAPTER EIGHT

  CHAPTER NINE

  CHAPTER TEN

  CHAPTER ELEVEN

  CHAPTER TWELVE

  CHAPTER THIRTEEN

  CHAPTER FOURTEEN

  CHAPTER FIFTEEN

  CHAPTER SIXTEEN

  CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

  CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

  CHAPTER NINETEEN

  CHAPTER TWENTY

  CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

  CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO

  CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE

  CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR

  CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE

  EPILOGUE

  PROLOGUE

  How do you forgive someone that has betrayed you? Someone that you had made your everything. What happens when they’re not the person you thought they were?

  Nothing makes sense without her. Here, in this windowless room, with the Bleeding Angels outside, I wonder why I don’t feel the sense of creeping dread that had always been present whenever I used to think about being patched. Without Aimee, it feels like I don’t have anything else to belong to.

  Thinking about her with him—it’s too much. It’s almost more than I can stand. I pace around the tiny room, just to expend some of this energy that is driving me crazy and not letting me sleep.

  Without even thinking twice about it, I punch the wall. I just want to feel something, but there’s nothing. It’s as if my whole body has gone numb. I don’t even notice any pain. A couple of drops of blood from my knuckles fall lazily onto the floor. I watch, but it’s like it’s happening to someone else. None of this feels quite real.

  It’s like my insides have been pulled out and there’s just emptiness left behind. I miss her more than I thought it was possible to miss anyone. It’s as if I’ve lost an arm—that’s what she is to me. She’s a part of me. Or at least, she was. Now I don’t know what she is; I don’t know if I can ever think of her in the same way. I don’t know if I can ever think of her without thinking about her with him, and that’s too hard.

  I throw myself onto the bed and stare up at the peeling ceiling, wishing that I could just get some damned sleep.

  CHAPTER ONE

  “Why don’t you try to get some sleep?” my mother asks as she strokes my hair like she did when I was a little girl.

  “Sleep?” I say the word as if it’s something that I’ve never heard of before. “There’s no way that I can sleep, not when Jake’s out there with the Angels and they’re getting him to do God knows what!” I put my head in my hands, trying to get my thoughts back under control.

  “It’s late, sweetheart. You’ll be able to think clearer when you’ve had some rest,” Sally encourages me, putting a brave smile on her face.

  The events that have brought me here, to the Summers’ home keep playing and replaying in my mind. It all feels like it happened to someone else, like it’s something that I was watching on the television or reading in a book. But it wasn’t either of those things, it was real, it was my life.

  “He hates me,” I shake my head, pressing my eyes shut to force back the tears. I can’t believe I even have any more tears to cry. I thought I’d cried myself dry.

  “Why do you keep saying that? If he’s the same boy I used to know then there’s no way that he can hate you.” My mother twirls my hair around in ringlets, her voice calm and smooth, exactly the opposite of the deafening shrieking in my head that I recognize as Ryan’s voice.

  “He’s in love with you,” Sally confirms, nodding her head in certainty.

  I don’t correct her, partly because she’s been through enough today without needing any more drama and partly because I’m too ashamed to tell them what I did, or what I’d been prepared to do. It had all been for Jake. I knew that I would do anything for him, anything to keep him safe. But it turns out he would probably have been safer if I’d never interfered. I should have told him the truth, I know that now. But at the time it had seemed like going to Ryan was the only option. Everything had become so mixed up and confusing. Still, I wonder how I had managed to get it quite so wrong. I was supposed to be smart but I feel like the dumbest person on Earth.

  “I don’t understand why he would have gone with them, just let himself be taken away,” Sally thinks out loud, looking like she’s about to burst into tears. Bea squeezes her hand comfortingly and I can’t help but think about how the tables have turned. My mother is the one providing support to us, the people that have been looking after her during the years she spent between this world and wherever the hell she was that was so much better than being with her daughter.

  “I don’t know anymore, Sal. I just don’t know.” I can’t bring myself to look at them as I say the words. There’s a sound from upstairs and I jump off of the couch and race over to the stairs, still antsy from everything that’s happened. But instead of finding a brigade of Bleeding Angels here to take away the last shred of family that I have, I find Jonah.

  “What are you doing up, little man?” I ask, my voice conspiratorially quiet.

  “I heard what all of you were saying.” Jake’s little brother rubs his eyes as he looks like he’s well aware that it’s way past his bed-time.

  I hear the low murmur of voices of Sally and my mother comforting each other, telling each other that everything will work out, that it’ll all be okay. I figure Jonah’s mom has bigger things to worry about than him being tired for school tomorrow.

  “Come here,” I motion for him to sit down on the bottom step next to me.

  He sits down heavily, like it’s taken all his strength and I wrap my arm around his narrow shoulders automatically. We sit there for a few minutes, in silence, both thinking our own thoughts, but it’s clear we’re both thinking about the same person.

  “Where’s Jake?” Jonah asks eventually, fiddling with the cuff of his striped pajamas.

  I take a deep breath, knowing that I need to keep things together, that I don’t want to worry him. “He’s had to go away for a little while.” I settle for something that sits precariously between the truth and a lie.

  “I heard what you were saying. I’m not just some dumb kid, you know.” Jonah folds his arm, looking with a burning intensity at the floor. The anger in his voice is mixed with his feeling of being left out of the loop and I can’t blame him for that.

  “None of us think that you’re a dumb kid,” I assure Jonah. I pull him in a little tighter towards me and he rests his head on my shoulder, letting himself be soothed. “We all know how smart you are. But we just don’t want to worry you. You’ve got a lot on your plate with school and everything. You don’t need to worry about this, we’ve got this.” My voice sounds stronger than I thought it could.

  There’s something so comforting about sitting in the Summers house, holding Jonah’s skinny, wiry body next to mine. He doesn’t know that he’s holding me up as much as I’m supporting him. It’s almost enough to make
me forgot why we’re both here, killing time at the bottom of the steps.

  “The Angels have him, don’t they?” Jonah asks after a few minutes of companionable silence. It’s not an accusation, just a statement of fact and I wonder how this grown-up voice has come out of this little guy.

  I realize there’s no point in lying to him. There have been too many secrets and lies floating around. That’s partly what got us into this mess. My mind wanders as I ask myself had I told Jake about what Ryan asked me to do, if things would have turned out differently or if the end result would have been the same - Jake choosing to go with the Angels. I figure that Jonah’s going to find out about what’s happened sooner or later, and I’d prefer him to hear it from me--someone he’s known his whole life rather than some mean kids on the playground at school. Word was going to get around town soon enough, news like this had a way of raging through Painted Rock like a wildfire. I guess sometimes delving into someone else’s misery made you forget your own, for a while at least.

  So I take a deep breath and tell the truth. “Yes, Jonah. They have him, he’s with them now.” Jonah looks up at me and I know that I’m not imagining how his bottom lip has started to tremble. His eyes are wide as saucers and I want to kick myself for thinking that the ‘honesty is the best policy’ route was the way to go with a six-year-old. “But I’m going to get him back, Jonah. I promise you, I will.”

  As we lock eyes I think that he’s seen something in mine that has given him some kind of comfort. He settles back, nestling against me and I start to wonder if he’s fallen asleep when he speaks up. “Why is your dress all dirty?” he rubs at the smears of dirt that have caked on the buttercup yellow uniform of the diner. “Did you fall down when you hurt your face?” he asks, reaching up with one small hand to touch my jaw gently.

  The question sparks a memory of being in that dark room with Ryan. Him ordering me to undress, enjoying my humiliation, reveling in it almost. Take your panties off and turn around. The words echo in my head no matter how much I wish I could forget them. I remember the soft sound that the dress made when it hit the ground and the stickiness of the floor. The slap that made my head feel like it was about to explode, knocking me to the ground. I’m suddenly aware of how awful I must look to Jonah, sitting in a dirty dress with half the buttons missing, the side of my face swollen and probably developing an impressive bruise.

  There are some truths that are just too much for ears as young as his. This isn’t something that he needs to know. “Yes, honey,” I tell him, keeping my voice as steady as I can. “I fell down and hurt my face and got my dress all dirty. But I’m fine,” I assure him, smiling although the expression hurts my cheek.

  “What are you doing awake?” Sally has appeared, arms folded and foot tapping foot as she looks at us. Neither is a good sign.

  Jonah sits bolt upright and his change of demeanor would almost be comical if the circumstances were different. “I heard you guys talking, I couldn’t sleep,” he protests half-heartedly. He knows as well as I do that this isn’t one that he’s going to win.

  “Well you better get some sleep, mister. You have school in the morning,” Sally points out, unimpressed by Jonah’s excuse.

  “When’s daddy coming home?” His voice is plaintive and not a little scared. Poor kid, I think to myself. As if he doesn’t have enough to deal with, he thinks something may have happened to his dad too.

  “Daddy’s doing some work at the shop,” Sally doesn’t even miss a beat. “He has a lot of work to do so he’ll be home real late.” I say nothing. We both know that Bill is staying at the shop because he needs some time on his own, some time to get his head around what’s happened to Jake.

  Instead of the tantrum that I was half-expecting Jonah to throw, he surprises us both. He gives me a quick kiss on the cheek and it’s so sweet I can almost feel my heart breaking into about a million tiny pieces.

  “Will you tuck me in?” he holds his little hand out to his mother and I wonder who needs the comfort more, him or Sally.

  I can see Sally fighting to keep control of her emotions as she nods silently, taking Jonah’s hand and walking up the stairs with him. I watch them make their way up and I don’t have to guess at the fact that Sally is thinking about how many times she did this with Jake as a child. All those nights that she read to him and tucked him up in bed. Now he was so far away from any protection that she could give him. Now the monsters weren’t under the bed anymore, they were out in the open and they had her son.

  I think about the photograph that I keep going back to, the one of Scar at Jake’s birthday party. I keep coming back to the same conclusion over what it all means, but I need something more than my own suspicions. I need Sally to tell me what the truth is about Scar’s connection to Jake. It might not get Jake back to us, but it might help, and right now we need all the help that we can get.

  CHAPTER TWO

  I push myself up off the stair and, walking back to the family room, I feel all the muscles in my body. It’s like the adrenaline that had been flooding through me has finally petered out and now my body is getting its revenge. I sit down heavily on the couch, feeling more tired than I ever have in my life.

  My mother doesn’t say anything for a few moments, but I know without looking at her that her attention is trained on me. “What, momma?” I ask, wearily.

  Her eyes are soft and kind as she looks at me, arranging herself on the couch so that she’s facing me. It’s been years since we had a conversation, years since she was even able to follow a simple sentence. It feels more than a little surreal sitting next to her, talking like this as if there’s nothing strange about the fact that she’s back in the world with us. I don’t say any of this out loud, it’s too much to take on board and analyze right now. There’s a lot to deal with already without trying to piece together some sense of my mother’s illness and seemingly-miraculous recovery. She’s here when I need her most, I’m not going to question the whys or the wherefores.

  She brushes an imaginary strand of hair out of her face and seems to be weighing up whatever it is that she wants to say.

  “You’ve spent years not talking,” I remind her flatly. “Now is the time to speak if you have something to say.” Distantly, I know that I’m probably coming across as harsh, but the time for tact and tip-toeing around things has officially come to an end. We’re in a war, there’s no time for the niceties.

  “What happened to you?” my mother’s words are as direct as mine were. But the uneasy way she looks at me tells me that she’s not sure if she’s going to want to know the answer.

  I squirm uncomfortably in my seat and suddenly find the couch’s worn floral pattern incredibly interesting. “What do you mean?” It’s a pointless question, I know that before the words are even out of my mouth.

  My mother fixes me with a look that I haven’t seen in years. It was the look she used to give me if I lied about something blatantly obvious; like the time Jake and I had broken the window in the kitchen playing ball when we were kids and I’d told her it must have been a raccoon. I smile faintly at the memory, but a wave of emotion rolls over me as I think about Jake. I have to push the thought of him out of my head if I want to help him. There’s no way that I can do what needs to be done while I’m being a basket-case.

  “Your clothes are filthy and your dress is missing more than a few buttons. Your face looks like you’ve just done a few rounds with Mike Tyson. Should I go on?” she shakes her head in frustration as she gets off the couch and heads towards the kitchen. “Are you coming?” she turns, hand on her hip in a gesture that I remember so well.

  I follow her dutifully, taking a seat at the kitchen table without saying anything as she busies herself boiling some hot water and opening and closing cupboards in a frenzy. I can’t help but follow the path she wreaks around the room, she’s like a whirlwind. It’s seems like all the energy that she’s been storing up over these past years has finally been unleashed on the Summers’ kitche
n.

  She pulls up a chair opposite me armed with a bowl of hot water, salt and one of Sally’s good dishtowels. “I don’t think you’re supposed to use -,” I start to point out but I’m cut off by the expression on my mother’s face. Her expression tells me that she doesn’t give a rat’s ass about the dishtowels.

  She gently dabs at my face and I’m surprised when she dips the towel in the water and it turns brown. I must look like I’ve taken a dirt bath.

  “So?” she touches the towel to the corner of my mouth and I jerk away as I feel the sting of the salt in the cut.

  “Ouch,” I complain but I let her carry on. I know that whatever she’s doing is going to help. “I suppose the walking into a door excuse wouldn’t really fly.” It’s a poor attempt at a joke but, right now, it’s the best that I can do.

  My mother doesn’t say anything, instead she just waits. It was a tactic I remember well. It was the silent treatment. Whereas my dad would talk until he was blue in the face, my mother would keep quiet, knowing that the weight of the silence was so much more oppressive than the barrage of questions. This was one of those times.